shock

Got the shock I needed this morning when I hopped on the scales. Have put on 1.7kg since I have been home.... thought it was taking a wee while to catch up on me and BAM, there it is. So I have to LISTEN to my body like I used to and eat ONLY when hungry. I'm really gutted seeing that big spike put into my chart on loseit.com and to realise I am back where to the weight I was in October, losing two months work. It really isn't easy, is it? It takes two months to come off, yet can be put on in a matter of weeks. It motivates me though, I realise I need to go back to my old ways, and these little 'treats' I have been having must be cut until Xmas Day and only then can I have one day off. Also, NY resolution, drink less. Over the weekend had a very boring experience of alcohol, didn't enjoy it when drinking, went to town and so many drunk louts out and about, I have begun to realise what is important to me, and basing friendships on alcohol, isn't.

Here is to a healthier day, week, month, year. One step at a time.

tough times.

so,
I arrived home about three weeks ago and its been bread, chocolate, buttter (and lots of it) and cheese ever since. These things I BARELY had while I was going really well and boy I am starting to feel it. All that plus going from excercising 5 times a week to about 2 times in a shitty packed gym - not ideal. So basically with two weeks until new years, two weeks until I have to feel comfortable in a bikini which was my ultimate goal, something has to change.

Theres a gym available at the moment that offers free gym if you take along a can of food - thats me until Xmas!!! Its hard because you hear loads of people you are looking great so you think sweet a piece of bread or 2 won't hurt. but when its a piece of bread or 2 when you haven't had it in months..it shows.

So bring on the festive season, but not till Xmas day!!!!

Bring on a new mindset, bring on bikini!

new

Howdy ho! Still a little bit more work to do to feel comfortable in this bikini!!BUT i put one on layby! and a very very very expensive one at that. hoping to get a nice we tan sometime soon hahaha. excited for summer i might add!!

xxx

Happy Birthday to me.

66.2 on the scale. Wanted to be 66.9 on my birthday. Blew that one out the water. CHAAAHOOOO.

Progress Progress

Not the best photos but :) OCTOBER 27.Weight unknown................... going to weigh in on my birthday and hopefully hit my target of 66.9kg.... I haven't had a great couple of weeks so we shall see!!!

you win some, you lose some.

another depressed post coming your way!

Started on thursday with the boy coming down, big yummy breakky in the morning, chinese takeaway at night... and its all been downhill since then. Probably put on everything I lost. And probably more. So much hardwork gets put into taking it off, yet its so easy to put it back on.

Need motivation.

achievements

• Never seen my collarbones until now
• 67.2 kg - lowest iv been since before 7th form
• can now fit into size 11 tight tight tight little shorts 
• happy girl