shock

Got the shock I needed this morning when I hopped on the scales. Have put on 1.7kg since I have been home.... thought it was taking a wee while to catch up on me and BAM, there it is. So I have to LISTEN to my body like I used to and eat ONLY when hungry. I'm really gutted seeing that big spike put into my chart on loseit.com and to realise I am back where to the weight I was in October, losing two months work. It really isn't easy, is it? It takes two months to come off, yet can be put on in a matter of weeks. It motivates me though, I realise I need to go back to my old ways, and these little 'treats' I have been having must be cut until Xmas Day and only then can I have one day off. Also, NY resolution, drink less. Over the weekend had a very boring experience of alcohol, didn't enjoy it when drinking, went to town and so many drunk louts out and about, I have begun to realise what is important to me, and basing friendships on alcohol, isn't.

Here is to a healthier day, week, month, year. One step at a time.

tough times.

so,
I arrived home about three weeks ago and its been bread, chocolate, buttter (and lots of it) and cheese ever since. These things I BARELY had while I was going really well and boy I am starting to feel it. All that plus going from excercising 5 times a week to about 2 times in a shitty packed gym - not ideal. So basically with two weeks until new years, two weeks until I have to feel comfortable in a bikini which was my ultimate goal, something has to change.

Theres a gym available at the moment that offers free gym if you take along a can of food - thats me until Xmas!!! Its hard because you hear loads of people you are looking great so you think sweet a piece of bread or 2 won't hurt. but when its a piece of bread or 2 when you haven't had it in months..it shows.

So bring on the festive season, but not till Xmas day!!!!

Bring on a new mindset, bring on bikini!